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walao ,i think im falling into this endless abyss ,already .

not only have i gotten Cs ,Ds ,and Es for my subjects ,but i am just totally lost .like ,i have no purpose or aim for anything okay .and i cant just 'go pray' or 'go to GOD' or something ,i just cant do that either .i like ,have this seriously bad attitude ,which is DANG vulgar and heckcare-ish .

seriously ,i need help ,i know the exams are about five weeks away and im FAILING EVERYTHING ,but somehow i just feel lost and i dont care whatever happens at all lah .

i dont want to fail ,do i ?

pleasepleaseplease , i need help !

i have NO motivation to work hard lah ,NONE at all .

i hate triple science ,i am totally withering here lah ,i cant stand triple science ,please send me to some lower stream where i can cope ?

then my mother is probably going to get this heart attack when she sees my marks are worse than the double science people or something ,but really ,my mind is blank ,i cant think ,i just stare into space..

i really feel v. bad now lah ,i want to CRY or something .on the outside im like ,happy go lucky ?but then ,i actually feel very moody and depressed now ,and thats why i snapped in english class today and said THEWORD twice today .even poor lawrence got scared ,and i think my group was offended .sorry people ,i just-

just send me to IMH lah .

the only thing that cheered me up today was ____ _______ ____ ____ . ahah ,and that ___ ___ _ ______ _____ .